Dear Friend,
I know I am just
A small insignificant person to you.
I know that I am just
Another person you would walk right by or stare at like an old worn shoe.
I know that I am just
Nothing at all to you
Please don’t convince me otherwise
You told me so yourself
From your stares
From your mocking
From your indifference
From your everything
I am sure that
You will never remember me
You will never even know me
But I will know you
After all
Everyone does
You know that too
You used me
As a stepping stone
Kicking me aside
Like a pebble in your path
Never
Looked at me twice after
Forgot
My name everytime I started anew
Tell me
What was I to you
An old shoe?
Me?
The one who helped
you?
I understand that
You have dreams
You have wishes
That I cannot fulfill
I accept that
我能接受它
Saya boleh faham
I understand that
I already knew
You would already toss me aside
Once you gained power
Your craving
You would be remembered
You would belong
You would be invited
You would be welcomed
You have that wish
To feel like you belong
So does everyone else
So do I
How could you have forgotten?
The dreams we shared
The dream
To be remembered by someone
Everyone forgets
You do
I do
But nobody truly forgets
You are remembered
You belong
I am still standing
Here
Waiting for you
Out in the pouring rain
Drenched
After helping you get dry
As a friend
I am happy
Happy for you
But I am not
I am so bitter
You forgot me
Forgot us
So fast
I did not ever mean
Anything
To you
Did I?
That is what I first thought
Then I realised
You are perfectly
Normal
I was
Not
After all
Why would you wait for me?
This insignificant person
Who can never bring you anything?
We were insignificant
Found each other out of nowhere
I brought you somewhere
Raised you up
Trusted you
Helped you
But your promises went
Unfulfilled
Forgotten
Lost
So I stopped
I realised
You would never
Never keep your promise
I confronted you
I scolded you
I pleaded with you
I demanded an explanation from you
With all I had
In me
With all the hope I had
For you
‘What do my promises matter
I am already here
You are nothing
What do you matter?’
You told me to get
Power
All on my own
So I did
I was there
I was finally
Finally Qualified
To stand by your side
You pushed me away
And I will never forget
What you said
Those words
‘Nobody likes you
You were never supposed
To get this far
Stop trying’
‘Stop trying’
It rang
And rang
And rang
It never stopped
It still hasn’t
I want it stopped
It still won’t
Please tell me
Why?
You promised
All came up
Empty
Forgotten
Fading away
Into the darkness
Fading away
Away from you
This insignificant person
Has never held significance to you anyway
Right?
So this time
Will you remember me?
But perhaps
Instead of being
Useless
Unliked
Was it that I was
Uncontrollable
Uncontainable
By you
My flame still
Burns bright
In the rain
Unlike that wisp of yours
I never
Backed down
I never
Gave up
Not like you
Needing me
For support
Dependence
I know I will not
Discard people who helped me
I know because
I have had some power before
I know because
I have felt the pain before
I am not like you
So you depise me
With everything you have
With everything you know
You may never remember me
You may never really know me
But I know you
I understand that mind in you
I will stand strong
I will be remembered
I will go further than you
I will find a place I belong
I will do it for you
To clean your mess
To bring back the joy
You have taken from others
I will do it for others
My supporters
The people who trust me
To make their lives better
I will do it for myself
So I can ensure that
All my promises are fulfilled
So I can see people happy
When it comes to that time
What you would do
Would you change
For the better?
Will you remember me?
The dream we once had
To be remembered
For something good
For a great contribution
For our service
Signing off,
Forest of Poetry 